Are you obsessed by something? You will probably say, “No, by nothing,” but all of us are obsessed by something— usually by ourselves, or, if we are Christians, by our own experience of the Christian life. But the psalmist says that we are to be obsessed by God. The abiding awareness of the Christian life is to be God Himself, not just thoughts about Him. The total being of our life inside and out is to be absolutely obsessed by the presence of God. A child’s awareness is so absorbed in his mother that although he is not consciously thinking of her, when a problem arises, the abiding relationship is that with the mother. In that same way, we are to “live and move and have our being” in God (Acts 17:28), looking at everything in relation to Him, because our abiding awareness of Him continually pushes itself to the forefront of our lives.
If we are obsessed by God, nothing else can get into our lives— not concerns, nor tribulation, nor worries. And now we understand why our Lord so emphasized the sin of worrying. How can we dare to be so absolutely unbelieving when God totally surrounds us? To be obsessed by God is to have an effective barricade against all the assaults of the enemy.
“He himself shall dwell in prosperity …” (Psalm 25:13). God will cause us to “dwell in prosperity,” keeping us at ease, even in the midst of tribulation, misunderstanding, and slander, if our “life is hidden with Christ in God” (Colossians 3:3). We rob ourselves of the miraculous, revealed truth of this abiding companionship with God. “God is our refuge …” (Psalm 46:1). Nothing can break through His shelter of protection.
- Oswald Chambers
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My goodness, I am speechless.
If you think God isn’t actively pursuing our hearts and challenging us……
He said to me, ’Son of man, can these bones live?’ —Ezekiel 37:3
It is much easier to do something than to trust in God; we see the activity and mistake panic for inspiration. That is why we see so few fellow workers with God, yet so many people workingfor God. We would much rather work for God than believe in Him. Do I really believe that God will do in me what I cannot do? The degree of hopelessness I have for others comes from never realizing that God has done anything for me. Is my own personal experience such a wonderful realization of God’s power and might that I can never have a sense of hopelessness for anyone else I see? Has any spiritual work been accomplished in me at all? The degree of panic activity in my life is equal to the degree of my lack of personal spiritual experience. - Oswald Chambers
Christ alone, Cornerstone.
i write that.
on another note, I’m pretty fed up with trying to please people and pretending to care about people i don’t really care for. If you want to be my friend, put in your effort and I’ll happily reciprocate.
(Source: omfgco, via unitedstyle)
Haven’t done this in forever, all I’ve been doing on tumblr these days is reblogging pictures.
I’m quite frankly a little confused about my life at this moment. There are so many things I’d like to accomplish, so many things I’d like to experience, and most important so many things I’d like to overcome.
I’d like to accomplish attending UCSD successfully. I want to look back on June 14th, 2014 (I looked up the 2nd saturday of June in 2014) and smile about what I did during my time here. Of course, there’re going to be things I’d like to have done or those “woulda-shoulda-coulda” moments but in the bigger scheme of things I’d like to tell myself, I learned a lot, gained many valuable friendships, and grew spiritually.
I’d like to experience true love. not just between a girl and a guy but true love, as in, a love that exemplifies self-sacrifice. I’m going to admit that I do things that are a little out of my way in order to please people but it’s because my grandfather always told me to love everyone around me and to lead by example. That’s what my name means, they’re a derivative of 3 chinese characters that come together to mean “give brightness to everyone around you”. When I first heard that the first thing that popped into my mind was Matthew 5:14-16 14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.”
I’d like to overcome my inhibitions. People always tell me that I’m out-going. That may be in some cases but I’m actually very self-conscious and shy. I usually try not to care about what people think of me and for the most part I don’t, but it’s hard because sometimes I feel like I don’t really fit in anywhere on campus right now. I used to be in KCM and I left it so I’m not close to anyone in that group (no fault to any of them) and now I’m in CCM but I only joined winter quarter so yet again I’m not close to a lot of them. I consider them by brothers and sisters and I’m sure they feel the same way about me but I’ve only become friends with a few people. I feel as though it’s my fault. This is where my self-consciousness kicks in. I have no problem getting closer to brothers but it’s tough for me to get closer to girls. I talk to my sisters but I hate when people instigate because I know it makes the sister feel uncomfortable so I have a hard time carrying a conversation for a long time or doing anything 1-on-1 with a sister. It’s not important that I get closer to girls but it’s the inhibitions that associate itself with the act of getting closer that bugs me. I also get self-conscious that I’m not liked by people. Growing up as an only child, I craved to be liked and be given attention. If i sensed that someone didn’t want me around or didn’t like me very much I would go out of my way to be nice to that person. That habit has continued with me through high school and now through college.
idk what i’m saying anymore. i’m tired.
stop using fb so much at night.
such a pointless activity that consumes so much of my life.
